Opening Post

I am Ojo (not my real name). I have a bipolar disorder (that disorder in which the person who has it has full of mood swings) and I am highly indecisive. I figured, it's just right to create a blog to convey what I have in mind and in my heart to help me find out what I should do with my wishy washy self.

You see, I need and want a good life and future. But with these problems in me, I surely need some help. So I decided to create this blog. This is where I will post all my feelings. I have full of mood swings and I always, always need spiritual help as I always find comfort and peace of mind in God.

Today is a normal day. I am on the verge of transferring to another school because I am not happy in UP. Falling grades, demanding professors, elite classmates, lengthy cases to read, bleak environment -- they all contribute to the sadness I have. It seems that I don't have life here. That's why I am thinking of transferring to another school.

Pondering about transferring to another school is a dreadful exercise. The name and prestige of UP Law is stuck up in my mind. But its the rigors of surviving there that's making me feel awful. I need rest and of course, motivation to study hard.

But I went to UST in Sampaloc to inquire about whether I can transfer. Together with my friend, Kim, it feels a lot better. It seems that UST's more friendly atmosphere is attracting me to transfer. I am now regaining my self-confidence that I lost. I was full of insecurities in UP that I want someone to bring me back to life.

God is out there. I need his words. To bring me back to life. Like how San Lazaro was brought back by Jesus (oh, yesterday's homily...).